When The Water Called Me In
Photo credit: PenelopeAndTheDucks
My connection with water runs deep; it is loving, supportive, and ever evolving. When water moves, I move. When water heals, I heal. When water calls, I listen.
When the water called me, it was a time of my life where I was experiencing a subconscious renovation of mind and spirit. Unbeknownst to me, I was shifting realities and enduring a process of unlearning all that I had known to be true about myself and the world around me. Water was the missing component I needed in building a bridge that would carry me to my next phase of life. Shedding old skin to become an entirely new being, one which I could not yet foresee but knew intuitively I was more than ready to evolve into required me to release fears and heal wounds; the biggest of which being my fear of water.
We had a bit of a sordid history, water and I, having nearly drowned on my first attempt to connect with her as a child. It birthed a deep fear in me and a subconscious disconnect from my own divine intuition and knowing. Because I did not trust water, I did not trust myself in water. The relationship I had with water was that of consumption. I did not know her on a deeper level, and I did not want to connect beyond surface level. I did not know what water could possibly want from me when she came calling. I did not know the true power and significance water would become in my life until she held me in her embrace.
When Water Speaks
When the water called me in, she came in from above; revealing herself to me unexpectedly during a state of deep meditation. I found myself peering up into a pool of water that had magically appeared floating across the ceiling. And I could sense water’s beckoning me, willing me to enter her gentle, calm ripples suspended in the air above me. She had something for me and willed me to swim up into her depths in order for me to receive it.
I resisted. I was unsure of water’s intentions. She was a stranger to me in this form. Sensing my hesitation, water knew just what to say to put my mind at ease; she put her trust in me first and relinquished control. I began to change the color of water and make her illuminate with fluorescent lights. I made her be still, then intensified her flow. Witnessing myself exhibit that level of control over water with just the power of my mind was enough to reciprocate water’s trust in me. I allowed my spirit to be carried up and through this portal of water, and what she had waiting on the other side was a message from the divine; “Surrender your mind and body to trusting me.”
When Water Gives
The message was clear. I knew exactly what was being asked. I needed to surrender my mind and body to trust where water exists in her most pure and authentic form; the ocean. I knew that once I released my fear of water, everything else I was up against would become easier to navigate. I needed to surrender my mind and body to trust. I needed to swim.
When I stepped into the water I remember pleading with her to be gentle with me, begging her to keep me uplifted as I put one trembling foot in front of the other. I begged the water to keep me safe inside her, to not let me fall and be overpowered by her strength. When the water reached my knees, a wave of emotion quickly completely engulfed me. When the water reached my waist, submerging my womb completely, every repressed emotion and burden I had carried with me for the past thirty one years of my life began to be released through the tears that fell raindrops into the ocean.
Water became my greatest healer. She was willing to engulf my fears and doubts and wash them all away. She let me lay my burdens at her shores, carrying them with the tide out to sea and into her depths so that they may never weigh me down again. She cradled me in the safety of her current and promised to keep me safe as long as stayed steadfast in my commitment to surrendering my mind and body to trust. The more I began to believe in her ability to keep me afloat, the more I began to believe in my own capabilities.The deeper I was pulled into the depths of the ocean, the deeper I began to know myself. And when I finally let myself surrender and trust her completely, the water around me became one with the water that lives inside me.
I was swimming.
When Water Knows
Like a mother, the water knows me better than I know myself. She called me in to unblock parts of myself she knew I had grown to require. Water called me in to know my own divinity. Her voice is my voice, her guidance is my intuition, and her power is my will. She called me in to know myself in the swell of her waves, to be myself in the fall of her rain, and to feel myself in all life she sustains. My relationship with water is one of reflection, with her health and purity becoming as sacred as my own and deserving of my protection, my utmost respect, and my reverence.
Water called me in to know myself as above so below.
Thank you for reading.
“When The Water Called Me In” is the second article I’ve shared on Mystic Words about my liberation. My relationship with water is what helped liberate my soul and uncover a part of myself that I was missing - trust. Overcoming my fear of water and teaching myself how to swim taught me to trust and believe in myself in a way that has sustained my creative ambitions. Without water, I would not be able to move gracefully and trust my intuitive knowing that all things will work out as they are meant to.
The writing prompts below will help you define your relationship with water, yourself, and your own divine knowing. I would love it if you would select a prompt and write your answer in the comments, or you can simply share a thought that came up for you while reading. Either way, I want encourage you to share your thoughts because they hold value.
Peace & blessings reader
Xoxo
Eryana Taylor
Writing Prompts
Describe your relationship with water. Is the relationship what you need it to be? How can it be improved?
Do you have faith and trust in your ability to manifest your desires? Why or why not?
How do you honor water?
What emotions do you feel when you are around and/or in water and why?
What are the spiritual purposes of water in your life?
